Hmmm... on the other hand, I should have bought that $30 violin at the pawn shop. I could have at least stolen its bridge, mine still looks like the leaning tower of Pisa. Like it has for at least four years.

Of all the years I've studied philosophy, I've always seen it as memorizing people's opinions and theories, and never really stopped to consider it seriously. When it comes to metaphysics especially, it can seem a little ridiculous. Aristotelean ethics, however, struck me hard today. "amiability, sincerity, and wit," the three things that make a person pleasant to be around. I guess I'm really self-critical. I want to change so much. I'm going to start trying.
On the bus today I talked to a guy with no front teeth and yellow-white hair who picked his nose and told me today was Christmas. I tell all the crazy hobos I meet that my name is Jane. It's a habit from my Hallmark days, when I worked with two Jane's and I could never tell my name apart from theirs when someone hollered. Maybe I should stop lying someday.

don't turn me down
for all i need
make my heart a better place
give me something I can believe

Jin needs to get her act together. Like srsly. No more staying up till 3. That was a bad move.
I dreamt last night about throwing up sea water and sand. It tasted really gross. I miss the beach.

RIP Pavoratti.

I loved you.
I still do.
Forever.
<3

I miss you so much. And it's been what, a little over a week? This summer is so strange, I want to hang out with a bunch of random people, but then I find myself wanting to get close to a few. I had fun in Fairfield, I liked it despite the fact that there is inherently nothing to do there, EVER (except go to Marine World). But when I came back, I knew that it had taken days out of this summer, days I could have spent with you. Because I'm scared that time will change things so much that next time we see each other things won't be the same, or maybe we won't even see each other anymore. I feel stupid for never getting the courage to start talking to you, out of the blue, because I know our friendship isn't going to go anywhere if I don't just give it my all, right now, while I can. I really do wonder what things are going to be like later on, when we all leave. Especially since my initial take on it was to dive into the whole BYU culture and leave everything behind in the dust. But now I don't know, there's so much I want to hold on to.

Whatev. I'm gonna be late for work, ttyl. :P

Summer is so...

short.

I am hungry.

That was pointless.

I am going to take modern dance at BYU. And it will be amazing.

Dir en Grey pwns my socks.

And I have some pretty cool socks.

I got new shoes and they are a-mazing!
My roommate is a good sport and that is awesome!

I... needa write my essay now.

Ah....

I don't know how much more I can take!

Am I being selfish? Or is it actually something worth getting upset over? I'm just sick of waiting. But sadly, I think last year should have been a lesson to me.

I need to get a life...

This may possibly be an all-nighter...

No, homework isn't that important.

I'm kind of anxious. I keep thinking people are mad at me when they probably are not. I don't know. Tomorrow will tell.

-crosses fingers-

[EDIT] Today will tell. [/EDIT]

I think life is pretty pathetic when I start looking forward to school lunches again. Yep, food out of a can is never very satisfying..

Moving has its pros and cons. Right now I'm feelin' the cons, but I know it's gonna be great being back in the Shores again. It's a place for hapas, yuppies, and the spawn of computer engineers. Oh wait, that's me! (except maybe the yuppie part)

So I'm kinda being emo at the moment because Braunstein has freakin insanely high expectations.

But on the bright side, I'm going to a protest on Friday for community service hours. Rock on! (does anyone else want to come? I'm alone at the moment..)

I'm still not gonna meet the requirement. But still. I'm fulfilling one of my life's goals and a school requirement at the same time. Pretty cool.

Speaking of which, some of us have to get together and climb the Ralston tree. If it still exists.

There are gashes in my thumb and forefinger, but neither are bleeding. It was a stupid art-related accident that I didn't take any care to avoid.

I'm sick of being emo. And I know that's what people see me as, too, which is the sad part.

I need to graduate the hell out of here so I dont have to deal with people I don't like and people I love too much for my own good.

I thoroughly enjoyed today. :)

I GOT INTO COLLEGE!!!!!

BYU Provo, that is. I already got into SF state like, in October. But this is awesome! Cause it was my first choice. :D

Screw this. I'm only gonna apply for scholarships I actually remotely care about. "What is education?" I don't know how to describe it, and if you ask me, the uneducated have as much human worth as the educated. Plus, I don't even want to go to your school. Bleh.

I open my mouth and something dirty comes out again. Mmm. I need to stop. I think slut isn't the right word for it. Flirt? Getting closer, but still not there. I'm workin on it.

I said I would sleep at 10:30. Well....

Dammit.

I must have Seasonal Affective Disorder. I was really happy today, cause it was sunny. And I was happy to be feeling normal again after my coffee-hangover last night (because I'm a good mormon and usually never drink coffee, therefore even small amounts can make me sick):)

It's true though, "Valentine's Day: Because love isn't complicated enough as it is." Jealous, though, I want roses! Yellow roses, for friendship! It's like the flower-happiness without the awkwardness. XD

So, go figure, after finally feeling better I go listen to some Regina Spektor. Awesome! With an album called Soviet Kitsch? You knew I couldn't resist.

Oh ya, there was this kid at the library wearing a Mao hat. He was one of the annoying kids, and he was also carrying around a styrofoam thing of dry ice and being... annoying, but I had to compliment him on the hat. And then they were like, laughing at me sort of but... He was not attractive and he was in middle school. Why am I so weird?

Then I wasted time with Bobert and J.Wu, only not really wasting time, cause I don't get to talk to them much like EVER, so it was cool.

And off to scholarship I must go.

Yeah. So that's the last time I ever cut school for no apparent reason. I'm just glad everything turned out okay. But now I feel the need to celebrate. Which is just gonna make me more screwed over homework-wise.

Senioritis is a terrible thing.

NS fun of the day!

25 Line From Star Wars That Can Be Improved if you substitute the word "Pants":
#6. "I find your lack of pants disturbing."